"GLOW"

THE ESSENCE, (c)1995


TAKING ON THE WORLD


oh i love the way you looked at me last night
like the time i really thought i touched the sky
and i should have slipped away right from the start
if only i could tell you how i fell apart

oh i love the way you smiled at me last night
like the time i really thought that i could fly
and i never thought it got me into tears
but after all these pills my fingers disappeared

(chorus)
and i never thought it hurt me like the way it hurts tonight
and i really thought i could take on the world all on my own
and this night seems colder than any xmasnight that passed away
oh i really thought i died

all i want to think about is you right now
cause the pain i feel is killing me somehow
and i only wanted to feel good inside
but now i feel it's tearing all my insides out

(chorus-repeat)


GONE


all the love has gone
and my world comes to an end
all the love that was
leaves me cold and alone

oh my heart it bleeds
and it cries out in the night
all my dreams have gone
as they turned into ice

all the feelings gone
and the night comes to an end
all the hatred gone
as it fades in despair

all the tears have gone
and i scream from within
all the love that was
leaves me cold and alone

(chorus)
all night i cried
baby please
all the dreams that we leave behind
baby don't leave, i'll go crazy tonight!

all the memories gone
and i try to forget
baby stay the same
as you smiled while we danced

all the dreams have gone
and i cry from within
oh my heart it bleeds
and it aches
and it burns and it burns
yeah!

baby, don't leave me tonight
everything is right!!

all the love has gone
and the world comes to an end
all the love that was
leaves me cold and alone

oh my heart it bleeds
and it cries out in the night
all my dreams have gone
as they turned into ice


MARY MY PRAYER


all night i cried
i had to see you
i never thought that you would go
all i just want is you right now

all night i prayed
that you came back
i never thought that it hurt so
all i just want is you right here

(chorus 1)
all that we had
and all that is left
i couldn't dream of another
all that we shared
and all that has changed
how could you leave me for another

all night i begged
you left me still
you never said you were sorry
all i ever could is to cry out
all night i dreamed
you said you'd stay
i never wanted to wake up
now i'm wide awake
and that i dreamed has all gone

(chorus 1)
and we try i said
we'll feel again
i'll never let you go
i won't give in she said
i won't change she said
i won't even let it show

but all i want
and all i said
and all i tried
to bring it back as it was
now i know for sure
it could not last
it could not last

(chorus 2)
all that we had
and all that is left
i couldn't dream of another
all that we shared and all that has
changed
how could you leave me for another
now that you've gone
don't you accept the fact that i always
deceived you
now all that i want
to tear you apart untill you're dead!!!


RIGHT OR WRONG


thought i had the answer now
i never thought that it could hurt so much
hurt so much inside

thought i had it all worked out
i noever thought that it could turn on me
turn me inside out

(chorus)
was i right was i wrong
oh i don't mind
had i only told the truth
oh i don't mind
i just don't care

thought my head is aching now
and the world turns round
i never drank
drank as much as this

could i only let it go
could i only make it disappear
drink it all away

(chorus)


ONLY FOR YOU


this morning when i woke up
outside the rain was falling
my head was spinning
for you
only for you
i stood up with my eyes closed
i thought i was dreaming
i never felt as good as i'm tonight

i never felt this way for anyone
i've never felt so good today!

this morning when i woke up
outside the rain was falling
i thought that you were as perfect as my dream
my head was spinning
for you
only for you
this dream was never real
you're so untrue

i never thought that you could promise me
to stay
i never thought you'd stay at all
again with me tonight!

tonight...............
tonight with me......


UP


take me up
up to sky
don't push too hard
or i'll might die
coloured figures passing by
take me up
high in the sky

see me fly
high above the clouds
like a bird
far from the ground
red and blue shapes
hurt my eyes
bring me down
onto the ground

(chorus)
and i try to make it go away
tonight
and i really think i should have
slipped away
only tonight

catch me now or i might fall
feel the needle in my arm
it moves as deep as it can go
it kills me softly, kills me slow

(chorus)
see me fly
high above the clouds
like a bird
far from the ground
red and blue shapes
hurt my eyes
bring me down
onto the ground


CRACK


baby, i don't understand
why do you reach out your hand
every word seems to be said

feeling it hurts
pushing me until crack
until i break

baby, i don't want to think
makes me feel messed up inside
teasing me until i want more
holding me up
taking me right to the top
then let me drop
i wish i could stop

(chorus)
feeling her near in the night
wish i would never let go again
knowing i'm fooling myself

all that i thought of was you
holding you as close as i could
dreaming i'm holding you tight
think this is real
never knew how it would feel
how it would feel

you can only understand
thinking you're teasing and playing
teasing me until it hurts
feeling this rage
beating you until you break
breaking your neck
until you crack!

(chorus-repeat)

(chorus-repeat)


OUT OF GRACE


the way i saw you dancing
in the rain
the way i held your hand
and left in pain
the way you said you
always remember the same
don't let it end
oh please explain

all what you said tonight
you always change the words for now
and again
there's nothing left to say
if only i knew what i must say
now the night's away

the way i saw you dancing
in the rain
the way i saw you cross your legs
and screamed
the way the wetness
dripped out of my face
it leaves me
oh so sensual
it's out of grace

and all i ever want
to use you up
and break your heart again
and all i ever said
just hold me now
and feel the same again
but i'll just drop you dead
again
and again... and again...


THE ONE


baby, why can't i feel it now
it feels like i am lost
seems to me like you're
the one
the one that makes me cry

baby, won't you wait for me
anything you want
there's no one here but you and me
you can fill me up

(chorus)
that's why i'll never make you cry
all night
and the girl is leaving suddenly and quiet
all night, all night
and my head is spinning round and round
inside

hold me close for one more time
kneeling down and pray
i won't believe that you have found
another place to stay

(chorus 2)
that's why i'll never see you cry
all night
and the girl is running leaving me behind
all night, all night
and she runs until i fall apart and cry

suddenly i see you cry
see it dripping down
slowly wipe the tears away
why are you so sad
why won't you hold me again
that's all i ever want
it feels like i am clean again
cold and feeling lost
(chorus repeat)


THROUGH THE YEARS


i called to see if you were home
i haven't told you how i felt
all these years just slipped away
a trace of you is still inside

and i watch the sun go down before my eyes
the light that once shone in your eyes
i haven't seen it since i left
it made me feel i was alive

(chorus 1)
all that changes through the years
all the feelings disappear
now i know nothing is sure

and i watch the sun come up before my eyes
it shines so bright it hurts my eyes
i haven't seen it since i left
it makes me feel i am alive

(chorus 2)
all that changes through the years
all the tears just disappear
now i know nothing is sure
nothing is sure, nothing is sure
i've heard your words
all like before
i've heard it all
i've heard it all before
all before

throw it away
all the things that i said
all the games that we played
and all these things in my head
and all the words that i say
and all the things i forget
and all the vows that i made
keep on spinning inside
it spins round and round...
and round and round
it goes
and all our dreams just disappear
cause now i know
nothing is sure!


BLEED


i know you've never tried
i know you never feel this way
i wait until my heartbeat stops
every day

i'll cry until you stop me baby
do you ever care
the way you make me hate you baby
makes me wanna tear
the way you say it's gone
the way you say it's final now

i know you'll turn around
the table's getting turned
i wait until the bleeding stops
feel it burn

i watch you fall apart
oh babe i love to see you bleed
the way you pushed me down
always
i'll never let you see
the way it made me cry
the way it made me loose my mind

(chorus)
and i wanted to be with you
and i want you to be with me

and the way you act
you said there's nothing left for me to say
it's only getting worse
and worse
i know you're gonna say
the way you leave me now
the way you always leave me out

and the night you said you'd leave me
oh it really made me scared
and no one's gonna find out now
you never really cared
and every word it sounds the same
you never gonna make me hate

(chorus)
and i wanted to be with you
and i want you to be with me